Conflict in real life

is much harsher than words

the churning pain, the fleeting agony,

it’s an all too familiar cacophony.

–

The fear that rises in swells is

an ocean

washing in waves of nauseous expectation.

–

Inept and Insecure

I’m left

to face

these fears

alone.

–

A deep breath may help

to calm my shaking hands

but

Drama makes for 1 good story

but

1 good story stomps on present glory.

–

These sparks of

anxiety…

An overused word

for this paralyzing emotion.

(try)

Fear of Failure

Inadequate, small

Words paint pictures,

so beautiful at times,

but I find, no matter the rhyme

It’s never

as vivid

as the real thing.

–

A rational mind and a heart of stone

can still be broken when left alone

in a second of intense

.

.

.

awareness of life and its proximity

the smallness of self and self-ability

Perspective is good when the glass is half-full;

but why fool with a glass

when you’re up to your neck in the river?

The glass it cracks

and washes itself home.

Your thoughts, again, are left

to roam.

Your thoughts

they mock.

–

I can hear them SHOUT,

tripping over each other in a mad rush 

to be heard.

It’s

ABSURD.

–

Don’t worry,

I know

how I’m supposed to play this game

my strategy ain’t apathy

it’s a head on collision

…a direct affront.

–

Face it don’t chase it,

a headache tastes better

than

comprehension.